Mornings are my favorite time of the day. Not because I enjoy waking up every day to go to work or to start my daily responsibilities. Typically, I wake up late and feel the rush to shower, pick out my clothes and run out the door... hoping to not forget something I will need for the day, inevitably I will forget something.
Generally, my thirteen year "acts" as though my hugs and kisses are a chore or that they are a nuisance to him. Mostly, he plays around and is smirking while he is pulling away from an innocent hug from a mom to her little boy. As he gets older, the hugs are less frequent but so much more meaningful to me. The kisses are even harder to come by, especially the ones where he doesn't wipe his cheek after I barely touch him. Again, he is over exaggerated with his response to elicit a dramatic response from me ... which he does. However, in the morning, He is awaken with gentle words and the overwhelming sense that he is loved beyond measure. I want to make sure he starts every day on the “right foot.” Yes, he has an alarm, but I sneak in and lay with him, even if it is for a few moments. Those are our moments to share. I can kiss his cheeks without him trying to pretend I am bothering him, he is just simply too tired to move. While laying with him, he will turn on his side and tug at his shirt to give me a little sign... a sign that he wants me to tickle his back.... a sign that he is not to grown for his mommy. It reminds me of when he was a very little boy who didn't run in the opposite direction when I opened my arms for a hug or turn his face away from an incoming kiss. I cherish those moments, as I know they are fleeting. I miss my little boy, but adore the young man who is now here. Even though he is too tired in the morning to fight off my affection, I secretly think he enjoys the reassurance that I will be there EVERY SINLGE MORNING.
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AuthorI have worked in social work for over 25 years. The past 19 years have been within an elementary school setting. Archives
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